For many of us the spread of the coronavirus has meant videoconferencing instead of in-person meetings and events. The Center For Religion And Advanced Spiritual Studies is no exception, having held Its Sacred annual RETREAT via Zoom.
As an Initiate, I Know that everything is brought forward for my Growth and Upliftment, Zoom included.
And so it was, as I was being of Loving Service in preparation for this Blessed Event, that I was invited to a pre-Event Zoom training during which I was shown how to use “the raised hand” function, which results in a little yellow hand popping up near me on the video-conference screen. That way, My Teacher, Who Brings Forth this Sacred Event, is able to see who would like to say or share something.
During this training, the very Loving Initiate in charge of this training, asked if we were all OK with “the raised hand”. The response was a chorus of “yes’s”!!
I, however, was not OK with the hand function. I had tried it before this and couldn’t get that little yellow hand to leave the box where my face and upper body were on display on the screen. That hand just sat there. And even though, at that time, I had heard someone say that the hands just vanish on their own, I wasn’t comfortable.
Nonetheless, I chose not to speak up. I did not speak up because I didn’t want to be the only one who didn’t know how to raise my little yellow hand. So I sat silent. I went “outside” of mySelf with the negativity - the fear; the pride; what others have to say.
As an Initiate, however, I had a Knowing, a deep Knowing That was Present and It was that I needed to speak up about the hand. I also Knew that when Spirit tells me something it is often for far more than “me”; many times, it’s something that affects others as well as well as My BeLoved Teacher because what I run inside mySelf goes through My Teacher’s Consciousness! So I went with that Knowing, which I had during the training and requested a personal hand-training. But I did so later on after the training. Of course, that Knowing had stayed with me.
I had chosen away from speaking up while still in the Meeting because I had allowed fear of doing so to rule. All I needed was to do Self-Talk to direct my basic selves - the part of me that brings forward my karmic patterns - to speak up and to reassure them that we’re fine and OK and safe and to use the Four Rules of Self-Talk in doing so. I also needed to use the Two-Part Release Technique inside mySelf like this: “Lord, God, send me your Light! Lord, God for the Highest Good please take anything that separates me from the Spirit I am from me now!” and tell mySelf, “(my name) it’s OK to let it go!”
As I would Learn more deeply at RETREAT Itself, our job as Initiates is to be On Point, which means Practicing Eternal Vigilance moment-to-moment.
The Initiate Who was of Loving Service in giving me these Zoom trainings responded right away; and there we were, on the day of the Event, testing that little yellow hand, which, as it turned out, didn’t work. Not in the way My BeLoved Teacher needed it to. Not at all!
My Learning was this: Go with your Knowing! Speak up! And for me to improve, do Both right away!
That seemingly simple “tech thing” was there for my Growth and Upliftment - and for That of others as well!
For this Soul, the benefit was the far deeper Learning to speak up by using everything to Grow In Love for the Lord, God.
Zoom Meetings included.